I’m stressed and trying to figure out how best to try and pay my bills while making my last press of coffee. I’ve got more going out then coming in. The added expense of having my jaw break was on top of barely scrapping by. Just musing things around in my head. I put it down on paper and at this rate I’m not going to make it. I’m not sure what to do. I try to distract myself with work and keep my spirits up. I feel Iike im slowly sinking under it all. The electric bill not getting paid really kind of shook me. I should have had an extra 400 dollars somewhere but then realize the $100 copays were the culprit. I don’t know why dental and medical insurance suck. Pushing bills off to pay other bills due is stupid. Not enough for basics like ibuprofen, cortisone, and food. It’s like Tetris and I’m losing. I wish I could talk to my Dad about it. Trying to figure out how much it would cost to get Kronos and I plus the 4-5 boxes of stuff I own out to AZ makes my stomach hurt. I don’t think I could even do that after the surgery without leaving a bunch of debt behind that o will still owe. They are worried and I have been emailing them but it’s not the same as talking to them. I don’t like worrying them. I’m just happy they are recovering. Blah. Just going to keep my head up, get my work done, and keep pushing through while enjoying a purring Kronos. Need to figure out his food situation as well. Everything has gotten stupid expensive at the store which I didn’t count on either. I will figure it out eventually…or maybe I won’t. I’ve survived a pandemic (so far), being run over by a bus, the loss of my furry soul mate, and a backyard jungle 😂🤷🏻‍♀️…a 390 phone bill, a 900 maxillofacial surgery bill, no groceries, oral surgery complications, and poison ivy won’t break me. ❤️ One day I will have it all figured out but that day is not today and that is ok!

Love and light to you all! ☕️🩰❤️