Some days I’m just really over sensitive. Things are fine with my bean. I think I was just lonely and overthinking yesterday. It’s so hard to turn it off when intrusive thoughts start overwhelming me. Dancing helps me keep my headspace OK. I have no room to dance right now. I miss having a huge poison Ivy covered yard to dance around and make videos. Though posts, pictures, and videos may not be available from me for some time.
The other shoe dropped last night. My phone is dying. The battery has been overheating, needs to be replaced, etc. I am 6 generations behind and the cost to replace my battery and be forced to fix the screen damage is as much as a refurbished newer phone. I have a couple of issues. I can’t afford a new phone. I can’t work my normal job without a phone. So dancing will not be happening for quite a while, no car rental for AZ trip, no way to communicate with anyone once my phone burns up. It appears that will be happening sooner than later with the overheating, the decrease in battery function, the forced shutting down, and the messages it’s been sending me. 😒 please don’t worry if I go silent in SM, here, or don’t respond to texts, messages, calls. Not sure how I will maintain my regular job as library is closed on Mondays here, with one branch open at 1 PM. 🤦🏻♀️😞
Regardless of all of this I’m feeling pretty OK today and laughing through all this. Trying to figure out how to come up with the 438-535 dollars plus tax for a refurbished iphone because I can’t use an android due to work VPN required for my device to log into the servers. I backed everything up to the cloud and server this am so at least I won’t lose anything except maybe my job. 😂😂 I wish they would supply me with a phone but apparently UMB does not do that and even if they did I would have to submit a receipt for payment for reimbursement.
Anyway thanks for reading through all my neurotic, overthinking, pity party posts and for all the love. ❤️❤️❤️ I don’t know what I am going to do without SM to keep me laughing in the face of everything not being able to talk to my Mom and Dad. I will just keep deep breathing and reminding myself I am loved even at my worst and that makes me the wealthiest person in the universe. yesterday I did share my love with a homeless gentleman and bought him a sandwich. I can’t offer much but a sandwich is only a couple of coffees and he needed it more than I. ❤️
Love and light to you all!!! 🩰❤️🩰❤️🩰
