12/10:
Well it's the first day of the Garden Master Course! It's unbelievably stressful! I am sound engineer, live editor/streamer, chat moderator, and ocassionally a stenographer too! It's just as much chaos as the RMH event I volunteered to do video for. You wouldn't think it would be so hard for people to be capable of taking a mic to ask their questions so the rest of the online class could be engaged in thr question and not be left wondering why the teacher is talking to herself! Then I waa tasked to try and type out everyone's questions here in the classroom and with my attentiom divided amongst everything else it's too much to even keep up with! I wish I could speak to someone that I could just vent about this without feeling like I'm unloading my emotional burden upon them and also not have to pay for said service. Some people have been encouraging and that has been nice, but the weight of all the stress and negativity of how this is unfolding today far outweighs that. However, I'm doing my best, but even with that I feel like what I feel should happen and how it should happen feels like having my plate of food slapped out of my hands. Last night went so so well I felt, but today has felt like a total shit show... I don't enjoy this sensation of overwhelm and I already wish the week was almost over. It just feels and is apparent that because these people are here in person for this event could give half a shit less whether we appease the folks that paid for the love stream. I feel like this behavior alone is exactly why people are not going to want to buy another live stream that they offer here because this seems like a recurring issue here....
Anyway. It's a Monday and it's been rough y'all...
I'll catch ya next time!