Autism and impending doom
As a parent of an autistic, epileptic son.
I always have feelings of impending doom.
Like shit is gonna fall apart at any given minute.
It's always some shit to worry over
Health (his & mine)
Even on days when everything is awesome
I still feel Like shits about to blow up
It's really hard to be generally happy because everything is always uncertain
Ironically, son thrives on routine
It's very hard to keep the status quo
When you're not sure what the status quo even is
The only time I'm somewhat at ease is the evening time because we made it through another day
All other times
Walking on eggshells
Checking on things
Hoping and praying things don't fall apart at the worse possible time