Autism and impending doom




As a parent of an autistic, epileptic son.




I always have feelings of impending doom.




Like shit is gonna fall apart at any given minute.




It's always some shit to worry over




Bills




Doctor appointments




School




Health (his & mine)




Insurance




Safety




Etc




Even on days when everything is awesome




I still feel Like shits about to blow up




It's really hard to be generally happy because everything is always uncertain




Ironically, son thrives on routine




And familiarity




It's very hard to keep the status quo




When you're not sure what the status quo even is




The only time I'm somewhat at ease is the evening time because we made it through another day




All other times




Walking on eggshells




Constantly worried




Checking on things




Hoping and praying things don't fall apart at the worse possible time