Anger buries me in a trench,
Explosions of abuse and neglect,
Negativity brings such a stench,
Causing a terrifying effect.
Bashful as always and shy as can be,
I embarrass myself all the time,
Hiding my face so no one can see,
Sometimes I wish they were blind.
Calm as I try,
Can’t always be achieved,
They think I just lie,
They think I deceive.
Dreamy as can be,
High in the clouds,
Lost and can’t see,
My feet off the ground.
Eager and openly willing,
Yet anxiety forces me to hide,
The excitement of life should be thrilling,
It always seems to subside.
Funny but unintentionally so,
Spontaneous and a little dirty,
Never rude or stooping low,
Unafraid to be nerdy.
Gentle as a sweet kitten,
Soft to the touch,
Occasional desire to be bitten,
Generous despite not having much.
Honest and no restraint,
I’ve made mistakes in the past,
I confessed and wasn’t afraid,
Never have my truths been so vast.
Ignored by every other,
Invisible to those around me,
I’d try but can’t be bothered,
No matter what, they can’t see.
Joyous on rare occasions,
I’m not always full of glee,
Others may be filled with elation,
It’s often harder for me.
Kind to the fullest extent,
Sometimes I go too far,
A people pleaser until I’m spent,
I can’t help what’s in my heart.
Loyal ‘til the day I die,
I’d never dream of betrayal,
Hurt so badly I could cry,
Disloyalty can truly be fatal.
Mysterious and hard to understand,
I’m a puzzle unable to be solved,
The confusion is difficult to withstand,
Maybe I’m wrongly evolved.
Nervous to tear down my walls,
It’s nearly impossible to connect,
So afraid I’ll just fall,
Probably best I deflect.
Odd in an otherworldly fashion,
My personality is nothing but strange,
Constantly overwhelmed with passion,
From the world I’m deeply estranged.
Positive is what I prefer,
Not an easy point of view,
To some it’s all but a blur,
Positive is what I still choose.
Quiet as much as a mouse,
Talking isn’t really my thing,
I’d rather hide away in my house,
Hoping the bell doesn’t ring.
Real is always the best,
Fakers aren’t my type of people,
I’d rather be real than be messed,
Unreal just feels like it’s evil.
Sad doesn’t often affect me,
I push myself to resist,
The stresses of life don’t let me,
Why does sadness have to exist?
Torn into fragmented pieces,
I’m a mess at times I must say,
Life hasn’t truly been easy,
Never again will I be led astray.
Unique and completely unusual,
Never ashamed of who I am,
Being different is beautiful,
Disagree and I won’t give a damn.
Vicious only when needed,
I’ve defended myself all my life,
At times I was nearly defeated,
I’m amazed I’m even alive.
Wise about the changing world,
Being aware is important to me,
There’s so much I still have to learn.
Unlike others who choose not to see.
Youthful in spirit, body, and mind,
Free to believe what I will,
A rare gem uneasy to find,
A dream uneasy to fulfill.
Zen is my way to peace,
A calm and restful state,
It’s all I long to achieve,
It’s how I endlessly create.