So I had the idea to make Valentine's day cards. (See concept art above.) Maybe like a set of them on a sheet for people to print out. If anyone has ideas for things to write on them, comment. Think cute fox puns or other animals.
Now I get into some personal stuff. As some of you know, I have autism. I do not adjust to change well, and I get panic attacks. I can't work full-time, and that is a shame. I love my part-time job. Managers are caring, coworkers (even the teens) are hard-working, and customers are usually understanding. I get overwhelmed by all the noise, but my problems are never people related.
I am also in college. My art kit for one class is late, and I can't wrap my head around the other. That is a lot of stress. It turns out that stress and anxiety are very different feelings. My anxiety pills do not manage stress. I have to drop a class, again, so I can manage. Thanks to my medication I am not panicking and I could hear my other feelings about college. It is not within my reach yet.
Learning is wonderful. My professors are awesome, and online fellow students are super friendly! I make a class post and get constructive criticism at worst! Again the problem isn't people. I can not manage my emotions well. I can not communicate to solve problems, and I get stuck in inflexible trains of thought. Sometimes I lose the ability to speak. I can not get a degree in my only sort of treated condition.
I am smart but I was masking for as I can remember. I seemed normal until I had Autistic burnout (mistaken as Depressed). I also seemed normal until I broke down or snapped (mistaken for bipolar disorder). Worst of all, I appeared normal until what was asked of me exceeded what I was capable of. Learning to act able does not suddenly make you able. That said this is nothing to be ashamed of. I have other things I do wonderfully.
My ranting point is I'm putting college on hold after this semester to take care of myself. I need to go on disability. Then I need to put more hours in at my job. I push carts and bag groceries. Kind of a cliché job for someone with autism, but I love it. However, the one thing I like better is art. If posts are sparse it is only because I have a lot on my plate. On the other hand, you will notice when I feel better. Hold onto your socks for some awesome stuff. Moments of joy always produced my best work. I can only imagine what a stable, happy Ronan can do. I'm going to find out! If you made it to the end, bless you. I hope you have a wonderful day.
Edited: to add availability.