What ifs?
Did you ever felt overwhelmed with a rush of thoughts coming into mind whenever you sit still? Of the things out of your reach and beyond your gaze. Of the unanswered questions bothering you in the middle of the night. Of the things you think you should've but didn't or couldn't. Of the things far from your comprehension. Mostly of the things in the future and sometimes of those in the past.
As we continue to survive and try to thrive in our lives, sometimes we get to see how our dreams unfold little by little into reality or maybe the other way around - how we come too far from it. And the what-ifs come into mind.
What if I did this instead of that?
What if it doesn't happen?
What if it doesn't work out?
What if I'm wasting my time?
What if it's not meant for me?
What if there's no tomorrow for me?
What if I don't find the right one or if I'm not the right one?
Life is both beautiful and challenging. The uncertainties of tomorrow bring a mixture of anxiety and excitement. The exciting part is discovering the wonder and beauty it will bring. The anxiety is about what the unknown could be. And the search to fill the inconsolable longing.
What should I do with these thoughts when it overwhelms me? Let it flow. You don't need to hide it or try to suppress it. Just let it. Maybe, it'll help to talk to someone whom you trust so you can process these thoughts. You can also surrender it all to God who knows you well and who is the Creator of the universe. Ask for wisdom to understand why you have these thoughts in the first place.
Continue to discover more of yourself, open up yourself to meet people, and continue doing what you love.
I loved this line from the book I'm reading,
"I will not let the reality of how far I still have to go deny the truth that, by God's grace, I've changed and I'm still changing. I certainly don't want to stop now." (No Easy Jesus | Mitchell)
God often takes us out of our comfort zone to open doors on faith-stretching & nerve-wracking adventures so we may see His glory being revealed to us as we take our steps of faith into the unknown with our known God!
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