Mar 02, 2021
2 mins read
I absolutely owe y'all a ton of explanations and why I'm not exactly consistent with content.
I have a history of diving into a new hobby/activity, investing quite some time into it, rapidly gaining the skills, only to be interrupted by something I can only describe as debilitating.
I would get sick after big trips out-of-state/country or go through an emotionally taxing event (for example, leaving my shitty ex and, a huge string of close-call job rejections, and more recently, losing my beloved Fleasha).
Things mostly out of my control would happen and I just don't pick the thing back up again. If anything, it'll be months before I face it again.
And I wonder why that is. I can't afford a therapist right now-- I really wish I could so we can sort out why I'm Like This^tm
So yeah. That's why I haven't touched the podcast in a while. I lost the spark. But I need to do it because getting underrepresented voices out there is VERY important.
But my own sanity is important as well, so what do I do?
I also added that I'm giving up looking for tech roles. I can't bring myself to do it anymore. I look at my IDE and I just can't. Even designing the graphics for my content is taxing and triggering and I hate it.
I also have an inkling that I have ADHD, but that takes money to get diagnosed as well.
Anyway, TL;DR: I'm a mess and thank you for sticking with me. Here's what you can expect in the coming weeks:
The podcast will resume in April.
This gives me time to edit the majority of the recorded episodes I have. I am not looking for new guests at the moment.
I'm still doing commissions
They take a bit of time and a lot of what's left of my energy. I will open them back up soon. Keep an eye out on my Twitter for an exact date of when slots will open.
I'm more active on TikTok on two accounts
My smol business: StabbyCatStudio
and my new cat child's account: FancyCatFlower
Also, the grand opening of my shop will be on March 19th. Keep an eye out for updates on the TikTok account and my personal Twitter.
Having depression and possibly ADHD is...inconvenient. It clashes with my inner need to achieve. I hate it. I've tried so many things to combat them (depression, at least) and nothing seems to work. The next step would possibly be a formal ADHD diagnosis and treatment, but again, money.
I apologize for being inconsistent, dropping off, and changing focus on different things. But I also want to thank all of you for your support. If there's a way I can repay you all, I will do it.
So please, let me know in the comments what I can do for you!