inspired by a recent mini-performance

Lately I've definitely been feeling like I'm up against futility. I can't decide whether to do things the way I have been, whether to "work harder" at all?some? aspects of art, whether to take a break, or whether to give up entirely. I'm struggling with creative blocks, fear, exhaustion, and unfortunately even jealousy. Luckily, my jealous phases never translate into me disparaging anyone, but they exist, and they make me feel even worse.

I do wish/hope that I don't give up, but you never know. I'm not really asking for advice or even encouragement, I'm just telling the truth.