My brain remembers piece by piece. My body begins too as well. It aches.Even when I don’t understand why,my entire nervous system does. Slowly I remember all too well The exhaustion from the early mornings & late nights creeps back inI’m fatigued and my brain starts to go haywireSuddenly I’m exhausted from “nothing”Yet “nothing” was everything little me faced So…My brain remembers piece by... more

She has grown into a confident young woman, sure of herself through Christ. Not afraid to voice her mind and thoughts, and also not afraid to show emotion. It is not a weakness, in fact young Jaiden always believed being overly emotion was a burden. Yet it is entirely the opposite. Being so emotional has allowed me to connect so deeply and care so deeply. The Lord blessed me with a big heart to love and be kind. So when a tear is shed, a smile is made, or whatever emotion is displayed I will... more

words #23it’s finally here: growthI’m blooming,I look back at pieces of my life and realize yes it does take time.I receive news and it doesn’t break me like it used to.No I am not numb, no I am not careless, I am just stronger than before.Like a sprout withstanding the April showers, so when May comes around it is a beautiful blooming flower. I was the sprout & in some ways I still am, but oh look at how I’ve grown. Maybe an inch taller or... more

slowly it stopsmy heart loosensmy eyes falli’m at easemy body is light my chest unwinds i finally feel alrightno longer treading water my legs lay stillpeace comes and anxieties go the Lord’s joy i will always feel.

pounding tightly,a sense of urgency swirls around and gets stuckmy eyes flutter my hands shake i try to pause but can’t even catch a breakmy body stiffensmy lungs scream i cry & fight these feelings i want to run away from thembut they follow me each and every day

my heart poundsmy head achesmy back shivers my chest tightensmy mind speaks: “breath”quickly my lungs fill up & out i catch myself frozen in stillness hours pass and i’m right where i was last lefteven as i’m drained from the panic it continues to rule over me