Day one online was not so bad. I was on for an hour and a half. I got triggered near the end, and it was odd, and I see something I need to work in than I wasn’t aware of.
I wasn’t considering the lessons I would learn from going Live. I was talking talking about bipolar. He asked if I was off my meds implying what I had been talking about was crazy.
I had been reference to the commonalities between psychosis and a spiritual awakening.
I understand people with fragile egos like to call thing crazy that they don’t already know or understand. This makes sense to me.
Why does it trigger me? I don’t mind people knowing I have the mood disorder. I'm very open about it.
It's because I hate being dismissed, and in this world we dismiss everything labelled crazy. I don't like being unheard. Especially bynignorant people. And if someone believes someone withBipolar Disorder is perpetually mentally ill, then they are ignorant.
Educated and awakened people tend not to be ignorant. Those are the people I communicate with.
It’s like the bipolar reaction and level awareness is always an indicator to an awakened or sleeping mind.
This trauma comes from the ago of 25, when everyone stopped respecting and listening to me. When I spoke of any of my interests - Spirituality and Conspiracies - no would would listen.
I learned to keep quiet, rather than be dismissed by fools. This was almost everyone I knew.
@coreofcorey complimented by speaking. He described it as speaking clear and with cadence. This means so much as my throat chakra has been blocked most of life. I’ve always craved being heard while I speak words that heal.
It is a great and liberating feeling to express yourself to people who are choosing to listen to you.
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