With everything going on in the world right now, as well as showing empathy and giving something to help the situation of other human beings, we also must look after ourselves.
The loss of control is a huge driving force behind my high anxiety levels. I stopped watching the news a few years ago. I hear bits and pieces on Twitter, but I literally take in the bits I want, then shut down to anything which doesn't serve me. It doesn't mean I have any less empathy or compassion for what's taking place in the world. I just know, I must make looking after my own mental health a priority.
Aside from the terrible, heart-wrenching situation regarding the war, is anyone else feeling like January lasted a whole year? And still not feeling great, even though it's almost the end of March?
Are you feeling down, depressed, or flat? I've felt this way a lot over the last few months. I don't know if it's the weather. The fatigue from the boring, uneasy days we had during the pandemic. Or if it's just my own anxiety that makes me worn out. The reason doesn't really matter.
I've been trying to eat healthier, just so I can find some energy from somewhere, but none comes. I'm taking vitamins when I remember, and trying to get outside. But I still can't shake the feeling of depression literally running down the streets after me. About to catch me at any moment.
This feeling culminated in an outburst during a recent family celebration and resulted in me causing a scene. During the event in question, I felt a little irritated, but not massively like I would have a meltdown. However, these things kind of creep up on you out of nowhere. And it did.
Therefore, I'm going back to basics and embracing affirmations, manifestation and positivity. I am also hoping my mood will improve soon. I have holidays to look forward to and I am making the most of family time.
In regards to world events I have absolutely no control over, I've decided to give a donation to British Red Cross. It's the only thing I can do to feel like I am helping in some way.
The link to donate is here - https://donate.redcross.org.uk/appeal/ukraine-crisis-appeal
Final thoughts
I wanted to write this post today for all the other people who are currently feeling this way.
You are not alone.
The circumstances we have faced over the last few years have changed us all in some way and there is no avoiding the fact this has an impact on mental health.
For more posts on mental health, visit my blog. In the meantime, I am sending love and hugs to you all :)