There are some things I will never be able to explain to you. I can use any words and expressions to try, but you will still never know what it actually feels like.
You will never really understand what it's like to grow up thinking you're kinda russian, and every time someone would call you russian, you'd say "eh, close enough", you will never know what it's like to feel frustrated that your culture is kinda bleak. No prominent artists or scientists or activists. You will never know what's it like to grow up, gain perspective and slowly learn that most of those artists and scientists and activists were either killed or appropriated by russia. You will never know what it's like to feel a jolt of excitement every time you hear your own language in your own hometown because there are so many of those who have been forced to learn the language of strangers and forget their own. Or what's it like to consciously make a choice to speak your own language, to see surprise on people's faces when you do, to answer "so, you're not from here?" questions, to make a statement every time you open your mouth.
You will never know the pang of pain every time you watch a YouTube video by an artist you admire and hear him number the great artists he was inspired by and hear a name of the artist born, raised, educated in your country, depicting your country -- and hear him referred to as the legacy of russia, not Ukraine. And you remember that childhood when you felt like you had nothing, like you were nothing.
You will never know what it's like to grow up like this, to live like this, to get death threats every day, to be in sctual danger every day, to hear the talks about erasing you, to see your children stolen and "re-educated", taught to hate their ancestry, to watch your own people forced to dig their own grave and executed as they die with the name of your country on their lips. To hear people scream from the rubble of their own homes -
- And after you endure all that you sit there and watch the important international organizations, the ones put there to protect and defend you and each other in face of injustice and cruelty - this very important and all-powerful organization telling you to your face that they see nothing wrong with that. That all this is actually very sad and they're disturbed and all, but it just doesn't really cut it as genocide, so sorry, the people who did and keep doing it all to you will remain unpunished, they will let their crimes slide while they will keep watching you closely and criticize your soldiers for being too close to civilians. They'll call THAT a crime and will not comment at all on the execution of unarmed pow, on civilians dying every day under shelling, on whole CITIES being wiped clean of the face of the earth. Meanwhile they'll collect donations from concerned people, and they'll spend them on luxury resorts in Ukraine. Nope, they can see no genocide in Bukovel resort in Carpathian mountains, sorry.