Change is a constant

Change is the only thing guaranteed in life. I've been afraid of change since I can remember. But lately I've realized, my life has changed without me even realizing it. And so have I. I don't live on the same house or go to the same school, or even have the same friends as I once did. That in itself is change. I make decisions that change my life, every day. Change is that little pain in the ass I hate so much. Because, I'm afraid. I'm afraid of the unknown. I need to know what's going to happen, when it's going to happen, and how it's going to happen. I hate uncertainty. My recent stints in the psych ward have taught me one thing: there's no sense in worrying about something that may or may not happen. There's no sense in planning for a future where you don't know what will happen. That has been a major stressor for me. So this is a relief. To know that it's senseless to worry about the future. And even worry about worrying. Some helpful tips for me have been to tell myself it's okay and that I don't need to have everything figured out now, nor do I need to have the answers. Not knowing is okay. And change is okay. I can only control my reaction to change, not change itself .