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Two roads diverged in a wood, and I —

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference. — Robert Frost

I am done sitting on my butt. I am done taking advice. I am done learning without actually putting it to use. I am done being scared.

I am done saying, “I want to be a writer.”

Now I want to say, and that too with proof, that “I am a writer.”

I am taking the leap.

I have wanted to become a writer since 2014.

What was stopping me?

Well…

  • getting graduation out of the way

  • unexpected life events

  • not knowing where to start

  • depression and confused reproductive system

  • fear of failure

  • fear of judgement

  • fear of disappointing my mother and loved ones

  • fear of not knowing enough

  • distracting myself with things that give me instant gratification

  • being influenced to think I need to follow trends, and click-bait others

  • the constant thoughts of “who am I to say this?” and “you know nothing, Jon Snow.

  • crappy first drafts! (Why can’t I just get it right on the first try?)

  • the general thought that the creative journey is unstable and uncertain than the typical, usual journey (spoiler alert- that’s not the case anymore)

  • the “starving artist” tag

  • waiting for the “right time”

But now I realise that no matter which road I take, all of the above obstacles would still exist. They’ll be a part of my life every day. There is no use in stressing over these. I just need to get started. The car won’t move forward until I turn the key, put it in gear, and push the accelerator. We will never know what we are are capable of or what we can achieve until we give it a try.

I am scared. I am nervous. But still I’ll do this. I will not let any of my fears stop me anymore. I will do it because, back in the summer of 2014, I had this marvellous, euphoric vision that gave me the dream of becoming a writer. I have been sitting with that dream for too long. I got myself all wrapped up in theory. It’s time I get to work.

So…

Hello to the humans of Buy Me A Coffee!

My name is Rubina, and I hope we become friends.

See you around! 😁

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