I was thinking…
“I’ll be completely ok with being an old person who just reads and heals for a living.”
I mean I’ll be ok being single and living on my own for the rest of this life. It’s not that I don’t care anymore. It’s just... I’m tired of thinking about it. Worrying about it. Working at it. Looking out for it.
I’m finally tired of the stories. The betrayal, hurt, sorry, sniffling feeling bad shit. I’m over it.
I just don’t care about that part. I’m more interested in the new parts now. The unknown. I know exactly what’s not happening now. I’ve already done it. I know from here it’s only up. And sometimes those ups will feel like downs. That’s ok. It’s cool because again. I know better now.
Here’s to doing better 🥂 💫💴
A Deeper Look
For my Numerology/Angel Number folks here’s the 411 (lol) on the number 999 showing up in your life like it does for me in so many ways. Also use your intuition to feel what the numbers may mean to you on your journey.
“You have reached the end of a long karmic cycle and a chapter in your life. You may be needing to let go of things and people more quickly than you are comfortable with, but trust that all is in order. Ensure you are not procrastinating and clinging unnecessarily to that which no longer serves you. You have learned valuable lessons, but the time has come for you to move on and share your experiences with others. You’re being encouraged to live as a shining example to others and move forward into new realms with grace and compassion for others at different points along their paths.”
📚Source: Numerologist.com (2018)
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I came back to this right on time today. I’ve been wanting to hold this in but from experience I’ve learned that never ends well for me. My stomach was actually churning a bit before I started up writing this again today.
Anyway.
I posted this to Facebook and within all of 3 minutes convinced myself I was being too emotional in public 😂. I can laugh at myself now. This is why I started this blog. To challenge myself.
I had a dream last night… or in my waking but not out of bed just yet. I was hugging, clinging and squeezing onto the person that inspired this post originally. That last person I thought I loved. I’m still to this day questioning if any of it is/was real. I’ve been wracking my brain all day to figure out what it means. Traveling through all the memories I’ve gathered with him. Trying to make sense of it all. Musings for me today sound like:
🟢 An Affirmation For Comparison 🔵
OWN Race
OWN Pace
No CHASE … Embrace
I Receive…. Peace and Relief. I release all that plagues me in my sleep. I release the the visions of you holding the pangs of your past disappointments over my head. I Let You Go with all the Love I hold in my heart.
I Am Free 🦋 ♾ No relation… you don’t give that to Me.
Gracefully, My Own
Sharieka Marie 🦋
When I’m feeling emotional…I talk to the Moon and tell her my secrets 🌕
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