Dear Diary... I'm here again.

May 04, 2021

Honestly, I feel awful posting here only when I'm upset. But I guess I will just have to keep doing this since this makes me feel better.

I've mentioned before that I am a Livestreamer, but I guess I'll have to throw that away now. I've been struggling with livestreaming for months and months... But something happened today that made me feel that I really have to go look for something else.

I was crying while making this decision... And still can't really be firm about it. I don't want to close doors but I'm shifting my focus towards something else for now.

I'm looking for other job opportunities and other ways to earn. I'm still not sure where my right my place is. But maybe this is God's way of saying that it's time to see the bigger picture.

Today I learned that applying for different types of jobs that are entirely unrelated is not a very good idea. It makes sense. Since I can't really focus all my time, energy and focus on one thing if I always have thoughts at the back of my mind that maybe what I'm doing won't work, so I have other things to choose from. Thinking like that, it didn't really help me decide because I always have these options that I can't even give my self wholeheartedly.

Today, I'm thinking more of what I want to do and what I want to focus on... So when I'm fully convinced on what I wanted to do, I will be able to fix my eyes on learning about it.

Just thought of sharing this to anyone who's reading... I don't think there is, but I want to believe that one day, some stranger will be interested in whatever I put up here.

I don't really have a specific content. I just want to be my own content and share with everyone whatever I feel like sharing. And hoping maybe someone will appreciate it.

That's all for today. Thank you for reading! 😊

Oh, btw. I got a new cat. Since I don't know how to close this writing, here's a picture of my baby girl named "Snow".

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