They said I was toxic.

Not abusive; I did not use manipulation.

I was

Poisoned.

Poisoned, in need of care...

Support...

Love...

Empathy...

Understanding.

Swallowed up in...

Negativity...

Heartbreak...

My own brain.

I felt poorly, more often than I felt well.

Poisoned, in need of care.

Alone I grew truly toxic...

Embittered...

Abandoned...

Blamed.

I found comfort in my despair.

Poisoned, in need of care...

Support...

Friendship...

Patience.

"You're a toxic person."

Words like a familiar dagger,

In my heart...

My brain...

My words...

My voice.

"You're a toxic person."

My voice.

My brain.

Your words an affirmation.

Careless words echoing in my brain.

Year spent...

Questioning myself...

Punishing myself...

Negativity...

Toxicity.

Though reality is quite a bit different.

You saw...

Negative...

Toxic...

Pathetic...

Broken.

Poisoned, not deserving of care.

"I no longer need this."

I was...

Poisoned, but getting well...

Stronger than you knew...

A phoenix in the ashes.

Seeing clearly now.

You were cruel...

Self-centered...

Uncaring...

Cold.

You were wrong.

I was poisoned and in need of care.

I found inside myself

And for myself

Forgiveness...

Growth...

Love...

Kindness...

Care...

The remedy.

Amber Meeks