I feel down. Not sad and not depressed but down. I think it has to do with me feeling that I am on the verge of being overwhelmed.
Currently, I am working full-time doing work I do not enjoy and working with a team member that is chronically in the mood of neutral-bad. She is not an effective communicator and often overuses words in an attempt to get her point across. This, however, has the opposite effect because being long-winded inevitably causes the audience it drifts off and thinks about other things while waiting for the speaker to get to the point.
I am studying part-time for my undergrad degree in Health Service Management; a program I chose because I work in the field of health services and, although I do not want to be a manager, I want to understand the role of my managers to better support their objectives. I want to be an effective employee; be part of the solution, not the problem.
I supplement my education with online learning platforms to have a better understanding of the tools I will need as I grow within the industry. Some of the supplements are added because I feel that my courses at the university were lacking in building my understandings of the subjects. One example is statistics. I did not feel confident in the knowledge I gained to utilize in real-world situations. Although, I passed my course; I still felt it was lacking. So, I went online and found some courses on the fundamentals of statistics and utilizing R, and continued my education and practiced my skill.
Another supplement to my education is outside the university and it is personal finance; more specifically, growing personal wealth. It is much harder than simply controlling how money flows in and out of my life. I am still trying to understand and figure out a way to actively incorporated it into my lifestyle. Hmmm…this is probably going to be a much longer journey than my completing undergrad degree.
I am also taking driving lessons, long hikes, and hanging out with friends once a week. Not the best work-life balance for me. I feel like my life is 80% work and education, while the other 20% is everything else. Hmmm…I would probably be happier if it was a more 70-30 split. 60-40 split would be me feeling suboptimal.
Hmmm…I need to do some planning
:D Helen