what do I need to get started?
"you don't have to be great to get started, you have to get started to become great" - a quote which has served me well.
internal voice - "so where to start?"
"who am i?" i respond "who am i".
stefan; husband, father, brother and son. musician and lover - impassioned, cautious risk taker and friend. passion seeker with a heart of gold (i get it wrong too)
not a job title or prefix of "a" - i 'just' am these things - but there's no just about them (i realise now).
they are glorious, magnificent 'beings' each one of them - me. connected to who i intrinsically am. no career path or salary or linkedin recommendation to sit amongst them; they are lifes ultimate test - my test.
but i do wish to leave a mark in this world... will it be a blemish or a wonderful patina that spreads across the world. i'd like the latter; but not at the expense of the "who am i". but not at the expense of the "who am i"
stefan - 07:47 - 8/5/2020
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(some) explanation
i have lived a life searching to be accepted. to be loved and I guess in that search I've sought to be admired. bullied from childhood by both by myself and others - i have railed hard against the poverty in love, clothing and torture i faced as a child. i learned to fight, i learned to do exams, i learned to sell, i learned to play the guitar, i learned to lead and i learned to inspire and my how i listened. wanting, wishing, waiting to be well thought of. sadly most of that was attached to a title. i think i might...i think it might be time to let go of them.
exec coach, senior leader, consultant, facilitator. what if whenever i did anything great - people went oh yes - "that's stef", "that's my husband", "that's my brother", "that's our son", "we love watching the joy he gets from playing his guitar", "he comes alive when he paints and when writes" and "he's my best friend" - the lover we'll leave to the imagination.
oh wouldn't that be nice 07:55 (just on time).
the capitals will come...
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