They said I was toxic.
Not abusive; I did not use manipulation.
I was
Poisoned.
Poisoned, in need of care...
Support...
Love...
Empathy...
Understanding.
Swallowed up in...
Negativity...
Heartbreak...
My own brain.
I felt poorly, more often than I felt well.
Poisoned, in need of care.
Alone I grew truly toxic...
Embittered...
Abandoned...
Blamed.
I found comfort in my despair.
Poisoned, in need of care...
Support...
Friendship...
Patience.
"You're a toxic person."
Words like a familiar dagger,
In my heart...
My brain...
My words...
My voice.
"You're a toxic person."
My voice.
My brain.
Your words an affirmation.
Careless words echoing in my brain.
Years spent...
Questioning myself...
Punishing myself...
Negativity...
Toxicity.
Though reality is quite a bit different.
You saw...
Negative...
Toxic...
Pathetic...
Broken.
Poisoned, not deserving of care.
"I no longer need this."
I was...
Poisoned, but getting well...
Stronger than you knew...
A phoenix in the ashes.
Seeing clearly now.
You were cruel...
Self-centered...
Uncaring...
Cold.
You were wrong.
I was poisoned and in need of care.
I found inside myself
And for myself
Forgiveness...
Growth...
Love...
Kindness...
Care...
The remedy.
Amber Meeks